Not Coping

[tyme]

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@Birdofparadise8 wrote:

It comes up on my phone only @tyme 

On my Mac, it's fine. 

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@Birdofparadise8 , yeah... it's  not very phone friendly. We are looking into this. Thanks!

[ENKELI]

@Birdofparadise8 wow that's a lot to process. I understand how you feel about not apologising to your psych, I tend to go over and over things in my mind and think "I should have said this." It's really draining.

It sounds like for every step forward you make you're taking 2 steps back with progress. 

It is always easier to be your true self online because there is that anonymity attached to it - it's a safe place where we don't get judged and can say how we truly feel.

I feel sad today because I used to have someone who I could be myself around and now I don't. Probably why I spend so much time on the forums now.

I've been having dreams about my ex friend lately too, where we are friends again and I wake up wishing I didn't remember the dreams because I know it's never going to happen.

I wish I could give you a big hug. You are such a smart amazing person, you don't deserve all this crap 😍💐 

[Birdofparadise8]

Did the "support" button change, though, and go back? I swear I was reading kudos on my Mac as well. @tyme 

[Birdofparadise8]

Yes every step forward and I take two back @ENKELI 

Oh I'm sorry @ENKELI. Do you see anyone so you can talk about your ex-friend? 

Thank you. I wish I could give you a hug too. I love hugs. 

[creative_writer]

@ENKELI I hope the doctors appointments helps you get your life back on track, it’s hard not feeling motivated.

I think I’m reaching breaking point, yet, I’m just sitting in bed thinking about the wrong ways to cope with emotions. If I’m not supposed to feel emotions, am I suppose to use unhelpful mechanism of coping if I can’t get by any other way. I’ve seen other people in my family use unhelpful coping strategies, why shouldn’t I? I grew up being told to “be positive”

[Blackbird11]

Be gentle with yourself @Birdofparadise8 

 

[ENKELI]

@creative_writer thanks hon.

It is so much easier to fall into bad habits isn't it. Not being allowed to feel negative emotions must have been difficult and having role models self medicate in all the wrong ways, there is that stubborn, well why can't I? thought that you have. 
So yes, how are we supposed to cope when we haven't been given the proper tools?

Is there anything that is healthy that helps when you feel like this?

I'm trying to find some coping tools for myself as well, I hate that I think bad things and make myself feel worse because then I tell myself off for thinking those thoughts.

[Birdofparadise8]

Oh @Blackbird11 

😭

[ENKELI]

@Birdofparadise8 I'm going to speak to my doc about a MHP and hopefully get some help that way.

I can speak to my brother and he usually gets me in a better mood but I think I need to have professional help in learning how to cope.

What are you up to this evening?

[Birdofparadise8]

That's good. @ENKELI 

If you have private health insurance, you can get money back through them. 

Right now, I am crying. Did you see the quote @Blackbird11 found. 

I've just chopped up some chicken for my dinner. I'm having butter chicken with homemade naan bread.