Thanks @NatureLover @Snowie  hope both your days have been ok. 

@NatureLover  I will probably write a few things down and take it with me to my appointment. I need to contact her and organise to go to her instead of her coming here- realised I’d feel better that way. There is away out if I need to leave. 

I mentioned to my support worker today that my CM finally called and that I was seeing her Thursday. She asked if I wanted her to go, which I said no. I probably do need the support, but I’m not sure. My CM has seen a lot of different sides to me. The good and the bad and the really bad. My support worker has mostly only seen the ok… and the struggling but holding it together. I don’t want her to see me lose my cool… incase it happens.