not coping

[outlander]

is anyone around to talk to?

[tyme]

Hey @outlander , I'm around. You okay? I've missed you. I haven't been around much. I've been on leave.

[outlander]

hey @tyme
i havent been around much either. i am struggling more then id like to admit but have gp on tuesday psych on wedneday and see a new psychiatrist following tuesday

[tyme]

I'm so sorry to hear this @outlander . It's been a big few weeks for you.. actually, months...

I hope things improve for you. Have you been working? In the past, I know now much you enjoyed your work, but I hear that that has changed in a way so that it's now just a 'job'?

[outlander]

no i havent been working as much @tyme i dont really have the second job anymore, they replaced me because of my limitations but i dont have the energy anyway.
yes its just a job, dont get any enjoyment out of it at all and when i get there i count the minutes till i leave.

[tyme]

I hear how hard it has been for you. As easy as it is to say 'rest up', the bills don't rest up. Have you been able to follow through with an appeal for your NDIS application @outlander ?

I'm here if you need a chat.

[outlander]

i have to start the ndis process all over again @tyme because theyve taken so long to decline the appeal all the reports are now out of date and they wasted alot of money. i have someone looking through them to see which ones i can still use but otherwise have to go and get new reports all over again and change the wording in them.
no energy for that either so i dont bother with it unless i have to.
if im not at work, im in bed. so majority of the day and night. i have nothing left to give even if i wanted to. no energy, everything is hurting and all i can do is sleep even if i wanted to do more. been like it for weeks. if i didnt have such expensive rent i would try for disability again but disability would hardly even cover my rent now

[tyme]

Oh no. That's so hard @outlander . What a waste of time and money. 

So much work to put this application in. 

I know how hard it is to get a place, but I wonder if there is option to find a cheaper place? @outlander 

I wish it could be easier for you.

[outlander]

if the reports were written in another way or ndis didnt take over a year to decide what they were doing they would still be valid. @tyme

there is nothing cheaper especially since i dont even have 6 months rental history yet. would be ok if i didnt have so many other bills.
the psychitraist ist $700 with only 200 back from medicare

[tyme]

Unbelievable... $700... 

Makes me so upset to know that only those with money can have mental health care @outlander