not coping

[Jynx]

@outlander oh hun, that is soooo hard 🥺

And being ignored and othered like that is DEEPLY painful. I know the pain, and it saddens me greatly to hear that you're experiencing it. And from an act that... honestly I'd expect from a high schooler. So awful. 

I agree wholeheartedly with @Eve7 - you are a wonderful person, with a warm heart and a kind soul, and you deserve to have people in your life who can see that!! 

Sending many hugs your way 🫂🫂

[outlander]

thank you @Jynx @Eve7
im tired of trying. it doesnt work out well for me and i am exhausted. i need to see my gp next week. its going to cost me nearly $200. the new psychiatrist when i can see them is apparently another 600 as well so this is crazy expensive for mental health. no wonder so many go untreated. im working and i amd struggling to even keep my head above water let alone with mental or physical health expenses

[outlander]

i feel like such a failure. watching life crumble around me and not being able to do a thing to stop it.
i use to have so much fight and this time its just fading away waiting for whatever happens next

[Ru-bee]

Hearing how hard things are for you right now @outlander and that it's feeling like you're just trying to keep your head above water. Is there anything we can do to help prop you up? 

We're here for you 💗

[outlander]

the one thing i was still good at and where i felt useful is now gone @Ru-bee there is nothing left for me now. ive offically given up everything because of mental health or accident injury

[Ru-bee]

It really sounds like this injury has caused you to lose your sense of purpose @outlander and that's a huge thing to lose. Such a big change could naturally bring on some grieving too.

With that in mind it's completely understandable that you'd be feeling this way and I want to acknowledge that pain, while also wondering if there's a possibility that we each have more than one purpose, and maybe when one ends we might find another. It certainly might not be something that happens now, but I don't believe that any person is only good for one thing.

Again, that's not to invalidate what you're feeling now or to try to put a positive spin on a really hard situation, more to let you know that even if you're able to feel hope right now, I'll feel it for you

[outlander]

ive been trying to find purpose in many things @Ru-bee
all my sports have been taken away and i no longer have passion to teach what i cant be near.
tried volunterring for a few different places
tried a different job, tried multiple different companies
no longer a carer
i have a job i use to be good at and now i just keep loosing out because i have so many limitations that it doesnt even feel worth doing the job

[Ru-bee]

I hear you @outlander and I certainly wouldn't think it's a lack of trying that's left you feeling this way. I sincerely hope that something comes along that strikes a chord with you and ignites some of that passion once again. I wish I could do more than just hope for you, but if that's what I can do then I'm going to be hoping real hard! 

I'm just about to head off for the evening but I'll check back in with you tomorrow if you're around

Take care 

[Shaz51]

hugs and sitting with you @outlander 😍

[outlander]

thanks @Ru-bee @Shaz51