Not Coping

[Snowie]

Hi @Birdofparadise8 

I hope you have a nice time with your parents today. It sounds like it has been a few full on days.

[Birdofparadise8]

I’m not thinking about the bullying though @creative_writer 

I don’t think I’m understanding.

can you give me an example of what you would say in my life? 

[Birdofparadise8]

Do you mean with them and what happened with RO? 
@Snowie 

Golf today for an hour it's a simulation dad loves golf. Mum doesn't mind. 
How's your weekend been? 

[Snowie]

I hope you have a good time @Birdofparadise8 I'm sure your parents will love spending more time with you before they go back home.

[Birdofparadise8]

Yeah, it's been nice. Mum has done a heap of cooking for me. @Snowie 

[Snowie]

Thats good to hear @Birdofparadise8 Hopefully you can freeze some of it and there will be meals ready to go when you don't feel like cooking.

Do they head home tonight?

[creative_writer]

@Birdofparadise8, we have a lot going in our subconscious. Correct me if I am wrong, but whenever you feel rejected it triggers a trauma response and reminds you of when you were bullied. Even your feelings of chronic loneliness may also be rooted in bullying. Whenever you feel like people are not responding to you, you sort of feel abandoned like you used to feel when you were younger. Perhaps you have thoughts of worthlessness playing up in your mind because you feel like nobody wants to talk to you. Your self worth seems to be dependent on others. I feel for you a lot can be tied in with your past experiences. I may be wrong, but this is the impression I get. Maybe you need to work on building up your self identity and self worth that is not dependent on others, creating an alternative narrative about your past experiences and focusing on your goals e.g., career goals, you have a lot ahead of you

[Birdofparadise8]

Yeah they are all in the freezer. She made beef stroganoff, cottage pie, chicken cacciatore and some lamb pies that were from a roast lamb on Friday. @Snowie 

[Birdofparadise8]

I guess so. I feel all those things, but I don't directly go back and be like oh this reminds me of grade 8 when such and such was mean to me. @creative_writer 

I'm working on my values at the moment with KHL. Like what I value in myself and where I can see it happen in the day. 

[Snowie]

They do sound good @Birdofparadise8 

My mum cooks for me sometimes. She cooked more when I was in hospital so hubby didn't have too. My kids have been placing orders for dinner since I have been home!