Need to vent

[BlueBay]

I know why couldn't this happen after Easter!!!

These food changes are going to be so difficult but necessary. 
I'm going to cook a lamb for Easter. It's just me hubby and boys. No dsughter or granddaughter this year. I'm going to miss them. But wel will egg hunt the week after. 

I'm really emotional right now. I don't know why.  Of course I know why -

my health,

chsnge of eating plan,

look for new and look to sell our home. 

[Shaz51]

Of course my sister @BlueBay you have soo much happening at the moment  

I cried the other day ,, it catches up with  us 

[BlueBay]

Omg I just had a huge cry with my nurse. 
she suggested I speak to my psych which I have just emailed  his rooms.  I hope he responds tomorrow. 
i can't even break things down. 
j I'm m going to try to calm down snd hopefully sad keep. 

[Emelia8]

Good night @BlueBay 

Glad you will be going home tomorrow.

Emelia 

[BlueBay]

Is anyone around ??

 can't sleep 

have been awake quite a lot of night

stomach pain 

too much on my mind 

[Emelia8]

Morning @BlueBay 😄🌷

Sorry I wasnt around at 4am when you posted. I was asleep .. lucky me.

I hope you eventually got some sleep too. Despite the pain and over active mind.

Home for you today. Hope all goes to plan. Love and a hug.

Emelia 💓😊🌹

[BlueBay]

Hi @Emelia8  i managed a little bit more sleep in between getting up to the bathroom a few times. Stomach pain still here but much less than Monday. 
I think my over thinking mind is playing up a lot. 
I'm hoping today once hime I can relax a bit. I'll have little A at home. I may even try a little walk. I need some fresh air and the beach would be nice to sit.   But I'll see how I feel once home. 
Yesterday morning I cried and emailed my psych to see if he could see me in hodpital. Where I am is same hodpital I go to for mental health. And he comes dsily. But after an hour I emailed agsin to say "don't come I'm ok I'll cope alone". Then last night I realised after having a big cry thst I'm not ok. So I've emailed to ask if I can see him or a colleague of his at his rooms ASAP. Hopefully he'll reply this morning. 

[MDT]

Hi @BlueBay
Thats a lot isn't it?
I'm thinking of you and watching along. I know what its like.
Here supporting you

[BlueBay]

hi everyone @MDT @Emelia8 @Shaz51 @Eve7 @Owlunar @BPDSurvivor 

The unit manager called in to see me this mirning as she knew I had a melt down last night. She wanted to make sure I was ok to go home. 
I told her everything on my mind and then the abuse came up. She gave me a big hug. I so needed that. She ended up been "my nurse" for the morning. 

I'm home now. Nothing is as I would like it to be. Shit everywhere. Floor is terrible. I haven't even unpacked my bags yet. 
I need to put my guard down on how clean the house should be. But it's hard 

I need to have another shower and wash my hair. It needs a good wash. 
I'm tired.  Really tired. 
just laying down in loungeroom

I have a doctors appointment this sat if I need to see someone as my dictir is away until Tuesday. 

[Eve7]

Take care hun @BlueBay  I hope everything starts to improve for you very soon.