Need to vent

[Eve7]

I am sorry you are having such a rough time @BlueBay 

Hoping you start to feel better soon and you can forget about work for now.

💜🤗🤗💜

[BlueBay]

@Shaz51 @Emelia8 @MDT @Owlunar  and others reading 

Hubby came to see me and I told him I'm resigning from wirk. 
If I leave hospital end of the week I only have one shift next Wednesday. 
but I'm not going in and I'll resign. 

i need time to get better physically and mentally. Hubby was ok with my decision as he knows how unhappy I've been. 

I was very upset earlier when I received message. Then I got angry. But now I'm ok. I've had time alone to think and it's not good to be so unhappy at work. 
it's really not worth it 

[BlueBay]

Hey @Eve7 thank you. I'm hoping To improve soon. I hate been in so much pain. How are you? Xxoo

[Emelia8]

I think thats the correct decision for you right now @BlueBay . Well done for thinking things through, weighing up the pro's and con's, and making a rational and valid decision about work. I'm glad your husband is understanding and supportive of your decision.

Now you can concentrate on getting yourself well, without the distraction of your frustrations with work.

Good night BlueBay. Hugs.

Emelia 🌷🌻💖

[Shaz51]

Yes good idea my sister xoxo @BlueBay , no good being so unhappy at worķ 

Soo glad hubby was supportive 

Now is is time for you take care of you xoxo 

[Eve7]

I’m doing ok thanks @BlueBay  back at work 4 days a week. It’s not easy but moving forward. 

This is is a tough journey just with mh issues but I can’t imagine how much harder it is for you with physical issues as well.

[Owlunar]

I'm glad you have made this decision @BlueBay  - this job has been dragging you down mentally and physically 

Actually I am surprised you are not on sickness benefits  - perhaps your specialist can assist you to have a break  - I hope so 

Take the time in hospital to rest 

Dec 

[BlueBay]

Hi friends @Owlunar @Eve7 @Shaz51 @Emelia8 @MDT  @BPDSurvivor  and others reading

home tomorrow. Being discharged.  I'm going to rest and take time out. 
my gastroenterologist told me that he was lecturing at the main public hospital today and was reading up on info last night. He thought of me snd my issues. He said I have visceral hypersensitivity. So when I'm emotional etc it goes straight to my gut and causes these symptoms. He's not saying they're not real because pain is real. It's just I have a very sensitive gut. 
he wants me to talk to my psychologist. 
he said I could possibly have another attack. I need to eat very carefully and if I get pains again to go to either my doctor or hospital. Or i can go off food for two days and give bowel a rest. 
He's on holidays as of Friday for a week. He said if not well I can contact him also. 
he's a very good specialist. 

im trying very hard to not think about wirk but tonight I received an email from centrelink saying my job search will increase. Great more stress. 

it's so hard to not stress. I guess one day at a time. 

[Eve7]

Hi @BlueBay I am pleased you will be home tomorrow and I guess the real test will be to stay away from hot cross buns, easter eggs and stress....that's a big ask! I don't envy you but I'll be thinking of you. 

We do passover in our family for no other reason than I decided there was way too much chocolate devoured so I go all out with a Passover lamb and all the trimmings. Much more meaningful but a huge amount of work for me!!

Anyway take care my friend and remember we're all on this journey together.

[Shaz51]

Hugs my sister xoxo @BlueBay 

My mum gets soo sick in her stomach so sending you  understanding  hugs