Something’s not right
hey everyone ,Im feeling angry currently and like I dont care after trying to hype myself up enough to be happy or optimistic today about what I could possibly budget or get done for christmas in terms of food and gifts for family,Ive logged on to find out that my Centrelink payment is set to go on hold this angers me cause I need to to think so much about my youngest brother at the moment with him tranferring to high school next year and all that enrollment paperwork weve been through ect and also another important family issue which thank God a family memmber hasnt left me alone to handle that situation regarding the family home that I live in with my youngest Brother who is about to start high school next year and Ive been doing my online study alot,its just that Ive missed a few phone appointments lately from my employment services provider and now my payments gonna be on hold ,Im acting like its not bothering me even though its stressfull to think about at this time of year so yeah when it rains it pours and yes I have done the wrong thing and should have consiquinces from centrelink for doing the wrong thing but then again my payments never been put on hold before and usually I keep up with it all maybe its to do with reajusting to doing certain responsibilities after lockdown and just in some ways I dont care even though I do care if that even makes sense,aalso Ive been keeping up really well with my study its just over a few missed appointments by phone,I do have a reason,so please dont judge me,I know its wrong not to meet centrelink requirements,my reason or to them I supose it wouldnt seem like a good enough excuse and if they want me to list everything Im doing wrong at the momment then ok Ill list what Im doing wrong,Ill take this in my stride hope they dont put payment on hold after all I have a dependant and yes some example Im being to my youngest brother right now as though Im failing him,but the reason why I havent met my requirements is because my phone is had it,not working and so I havnt been able to use it for phone calls as much cause the battery is worn out and it keeps turning off all the time as soon as I try to charge the phone it goes flat again so cant really use it now so thats why they cant call me or anyone else for matter and it is really frustrating for me as a do have a new phone to setup but Im too worried about loosing important info off my old phone so havnt set up the new phone yet even though at this point ill probly loose important info/photos off my old phone anyway,technology is a pain cause if my old phone didnt mess up and was still useable for phonecalls then I wouldnt have this problem of people not being able to call me ,maybe in some ways that past stuff on my past phone Im struggling to let go of the past on the old phone even though I like my new phone and want to have that one setup its hard to move from old to new things even if those old things are gone or broken now and I mean that in a few ways,but thanks forum friends for reading and listening this long hopefully they wont be too harsh about my mistakes LostAngel
