@Asgard hahaha I do that because I don't want to flood the forum with we just responding to everyone. I am still not comfortable to approach others posts just yet. I am not doing much these days as I am not working or studying, I know I am healing and that can be a full time role in itself. I will probably just curl up on the couch and play animal crossing to be honest.

@Dimity thank you, that is so sweet and very much appreciated- especially when feeling so alone. 

@tyme thank you for the welcome, this here have been rough overnight ill elaborate more below.

It only 9.30 am here in WA it feels like 6pm. It an overcast cold and drizzly day here. I have been awake since 6.30am yesterday hence why it feels so late for me right now. I have at lease been productive and done a load of washing and vacuumed the floors. 

It was such a long dark cold and lonely night last night. I am feeling even more depleted than I did yesterday.  I guess its days like today that I need to use my PRN medication and just spend the day resting as much as I can. I am getting so frustrated with how much this is healing is taking it out of me, I don't have bountiful energy to begin with anyways. 

I guess this just might be the anger and frustration part of the journey as they are very present right now, especially around me having to put so much effort, energy and work into healing all parts of myself. 

Hopefully my GP appointment tomorrow and therapy on Friday will provide me with some relief even if only for a short while.

Its just about holding on to the next moment and doing the best I can to look after myself when times are tough.

Gosh everything is so taxing at the moment.