Thank you everyone for the thought out answers. I want to type a thought out response. But I just don't have one.

I'm tired and worn out and just want an excuse to be triggered enough to suicide. I feel like my life is so superficial and these prevention campaigns just feel even more superficial and a thing thrown in your face so people can tick a box saying they're trying. I gerl like no one actually tries for my life. No one cares enough to actually ask hey, whats up.

I know you all are trying though. That's something I guess.