Hi, I straddle both the lived experience and the carers and family groups. At the moment I need support for my lived experience. after the breakup of my 20yr marriage I was diagnosed with depression and more recently anxiety as well. I am medicated for both. I mostly manage to be on an even keel and haven’t needed to see anyone beyond my gp since my last psych retired about a year ago. However at the start of the year my younger daughter (25) got diagnosed with diabetes and then rushed to hospital for it, where of course I couldn’t go with her. She’s stabilised and doing well, but then she got covid at the end of January…and I spiked in anxiety. So I tried to get to see a new psych but I’ve been waiting for an appointment and it’s been cancelled on me and now I’m waiting for a new appointment. I have been the carer as well as the mother of my elder daughter (28) since the end of my marriage, when I gave up my job and moved with my girls interstate. She suffers from chronic fatigue syndrome as well as severe anxiety and depression, and now agoraphobia. She is medicated and getting excellent treatment but her anxiety has meant her vaccination was delayed. So we made the decision to send my covid infected daughter to my parents who were triple vaxxed to protect my elder daughter. I spent that entire week in high anxiety that I’d made the wrong decision and endangered my parents. It was beyond awful. Added to that was th guilt of not looking after my diabetic daughter. Anyway, we survived that, daughter the elder has had her first vaccination but a comedy of errors (drs canceling appointments) has meant she still hasn’t had her second vaccine. And the rest of us are waiting on our boosters because she’s the priority to get her second shot. Unfortunately now my niece, who has been living in our granny flat since she left home a year ago has now contracted covid. And I’m worried I have too, despite having had no contact with her in the supposedly contagious time. I may be feverish or I may just be anxious. And I don’t want to take the test tonight because there’s nothing I can do and it will just share the anxiety to my at risk daughters if I am positive. Man, that’s a lot, I’m sorry. I spoke to someone on the care line last time but I felt guilty for taking up their time.