I’ve struggled with my memory for a long time @Jynx specifically since struggling with my mental health in my 20s. And yeah when other people can tell you stuff about your own life that you don’t recall sucks indeed. 

I don’t really know why it has got worse. Only that I had that trauma anniversary in Jan/feb. But things SHOULD be better now. It usually is. So yeah it’s distressing not know what’s going on. 

I haven’t really spoken to folks about it much. Like I seen my pdoc today and my CM and SW was there. And like I mentioned it happens. But yeah. This pdoc is so different. He asked a heap of questions and I was mostly able to answer them, but I don’t know, this stuff is scary and distressing and I kinda feel a bit guarded about it. It means being heaps vulnerable and I don’t know if I can do that with him. 

I’m due to see my psych tomorrow but I’m so scared. Scared it will happen there. And I feel like our relationship isn’t real good at the moment. 

it’s the lack of control. It’s doing scary stuff while I’m not there. 

urgh not something to get all teary and cry about though. Stupid me