Well all that stress and anxiety over running arts and craft today for nothing. 
I mentally prepared for this for days, I prepared tools for the activity and all. I arrived at the office and started rummaging through the untidy arts and craft drawers for things that were needed. Then the 2 staff members that were in the office facilitating today come in and asked everyone what they were doing today and started throwing out suggestions. Oh I should rewind to last week where I bought in some of the little mini books that I had made as the week before that a couple of the other clients had asked if I would lead an activity. They liked them. The team leader liked them and approved for me to do it next week and approved for a staff member to go purchase some special glue from spotlight. He went and did that last week. 
what the Fark? I discreetly put things away and quietly sat down on my own. I don’t have the confidence to say anything. 
I was frustrated. Disappointed. Annoyed. And I am frustrated with myself that I allow such stupid little things to get to me so much. 

prior to that I had my pdoc appointment. He added another god dam pill. Sigh. 

after that I seen my CM. She asked a lot of questions. Including a million about why I didn’t attend my psych appointment last week. I had already informed them that I didn’t sleep and I got my daughter to school and just went back to sleep not even registering that I had appointments that day, I was so blinking tired. 

oh and my daughter comes home from school this afternoon crying cause a kid slapped her in the face. 

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