@Birdofparadise8 BoP are outdoor plants, they prefer full sun and grow quite big. I always check out what the plant needs and whether it's an indoor or outdoor plant before buying it. 

I'll keep you updated on her progress 🥰

She will flower in spring/summer but probably not for a year or 2 because they are slow growing. I want her flowering now!

My coping strategies are pretty much the same as yours, as well as medication for when my anxiety is really high. And I also try to spend time in prayer, which I guess would be like meditation. 

One thing I would suggest is to try and stop worrying so much about future issues. 

It's taken me a while but I've learnt to not worry about the future. Right now I have no idea if/when I'll get another job. I used to panic and stress and make myself si*ck with worry. Now I take deep breaths and tell myself it's okay, I can't change the future and worrying about what I can't change will only make me sick. It's okay, you will get through this.

Independent of your psych. You already are independent, living away from home and managing your daily life. You are an amazing girl my princess, I wish you could see what I do 🫂 🤗 💙