Hey @Birdofparadise8 ,

I hear these thoughts of rejection are so loud right now so that it's hard to hear anything else.

I wonder if you can give him the benefit of the doubt? This is not just about accepting that he 'rejected' you, but it's an opportunity to allow you to consider the situation from another perspective. This is part of healing. Your contentment in life needs to come from you and only you. As much as others can add to or take away from this satisfaction, it cannot be something that is going to pull you down and keep you down. 

Life will continue to be full of experiences such like. I hope you find a way to work through it so that you can benefit from it and be a winner.

Know you are not alone in this.