@Birdofparadise8 I learnt about it in social work. You would have to ask your ask if he is familiar with it. What I’m trying to say is right now you are grieving over past bullying and finding it difficult to move forward but over time you need to create new meaning through a different narrative, try new things, create a new identity for yourself. You don’t need to necessarily deny what happened to you, but you need to realise your experiences don’t define you