It is hard to fight those emotions @Birdofparadise8 but constantly predicting the worst outcome is never healthy. This could be a great opportunity to find other things to occupy your time. I remember some time ago one of the PSWs asking if you could get out to a group or meet people with something you were interested in and you said you did not have the time - now is a great opportunity to use that time to do something like that. It could also be a great time to think of your priorities in life and how you can achieve those things you want to do.