@ENKELI, I seem to find myself circling back. I know using the wrong ways to cope leads to complications down the track, regardless of your chosen “self destructive strategy”. I lying in bed for now as I don’t feel well, under covers even though it’s warm, but I feel safer this way, I struggle to find safety. My nose is burning. Gotta thank those pesky bugs. I think I’m going to have to do a better job at rigorously cleaning travel coffee mugs. I also think I have a cold sore, which is incredibly stubborn , hurts sometimes to eat