Hi @Blackbird11 

We talked about how I was premature and how I would be In hospital and that I wouldn't always have someone looking after me if I was crying and then that could lead to me in pain or feeling abandoned. 

So this deep abandonment could stem all the way back to being born. 

And with the sadness. Then also with rejection not only around others but even my psych because he said I book the appointments so far in advance. But that because I have a specific time with being available and I don't want miss an appointment. He said that's because I have a fear or rejection with him. But that fair enough when I can only do that session. But maybe he is referring to me booking than So far out.