thanks @Birdofparadise8 and @Blackbird11.

I never got to have kids and then for 10 years I was blessed with my Godchildren. If I'd known they were going to be ripped away from me I would never have got involved with them. They didn't even have a say, their mother had a beef with me and demanded that they not get in touch with me, ever. My heart feels like it's shattered.

The day I lost you, I also lost me.

I’ve been trying to find myself again

But it’s hard because you

Were a huge part of my life.        

Not having you here is so painful

I’m just not me anymore.