Exactly @Birdofparadise8 Some people come into our lives for a short time and others are there for longer. Often those for a short time fill a void we have at that time and that is often when we gravitate towards people that are not true or real because we Need something.

I can imagine how hard it has been for you to be on the receiving end of that for so long. One thing I would suggest moving forward is to stay a little guarded around others ie. do not give too much of yourself away quickly but rather let relationships/friendships unfold slowly. You may even find some of those long term friends that actually are friends in the process.

I have to log off Hon but will catch you later - boundaries for me are very important and one of mine is to not spend too long on line - it is also not good for my back to be sitting for long - so fur baby snuggles for me now. Maybe you could have a break too and give squishmellow a big hug - I know it is not the same as a fur baby but the thought is the same.

I also want to thank you for the conversation and for the real introspection you have undertaken this evening - that is a sign that you want to change and given the right circumstances I have no doubt you will get there. Goodnight @Birdofparadise8 💕