@Bow I'm glad you got some painting in! Might not distract the mind but it is still a creative process and thus good for the soul. Do you do like still life, landscapes, stuff like that? Have you ever painted your feelings? Friend of mine does so, she sketches and draws the hard and the dark stuff. The drawings come out pretty brutal, horror theme and stuff, but she says it's really cathartic. 

Glad you got to chat to your support worker, it does sound like they're willing to put in heaps of effort for you. Still facing that mental roadblock with the gp tho huh? I hope it's something you can move through, when you're ready to do so. I imagine feeling pressured externally isn't helping. 

I imagine it's more tiresome from your perspective hun. I'm still here, still listening 💜