Hi @EM26

Thanks for you post. I hope it helps you to vent and reach out for support on the forum. 

I understand what it is like to struggle to afford services and feel lost when someone you rely on is away. I try to develop a network of supports to be able to call on for help. I now have a range of people, services and things to do if I am struggling, so I am not so reliant on just one. Some community organisations such as Centacare, Anglicare can offer support. And there are peer support networks in some areas or online.

It sounds like your GP is a really great support for you. When they come back let them know that you are looking at developing your network of supports including for when he is away, or not available. Let him know about not being able to afford your psychologist at the moment - and ask for suggestions of more affordable options. 

Please check with your GP before stopping or changing any meds to make sure it is suitable for you and doesn't make things worse.

Don't be afraid to call helplines for a friendly ear. It doesn't have to be a major crisis to seek support, they can talk with you anytime you need support. And if you try one and it doesn't help, try a different one or call again to get someone different:

SANE Help Centre: 1800 187 263 (Monday - Friday, 10am-10pm)

Beyond Blue: 1300 22 4636 (24/7)

Lifeline: 13 11 14 (24/7)

Suicide Call Back Service: 1300 659 467 (24/7)

Please feel free to vent about the things that are worrying you. I don't have children, but from what others have said it seems young adults aren't usually good at telling family they love them, but usually they do, even if it is not easy to see. If they aren't comfortable with verbally affirming their love for you, maybe you could explore other ways to express and receive love, such as spending meaningful time with each other, or doing nice things for each other (see 5 love languages). It sounds like you aren't valued at work either. So I understand why you may be feeling unloved and lonely. Do you have some friends or family who you can enjoy some time with or a phonecall?