Hi @Appleblossom 

I understand what you are saying about ‘not’ overcoming vulnerability. People always told me how strong I was and my friend from back where I grew up said that I’m so strong I’ll keep fighting after the suicide attempt. After my last attempt I told her that it’s more to accept that ‘I’m weak’ and accept that others sometimes make a decision when I’m not we’ll enough. It makes me cringe but I know that’s an agreement I made with my care team after my last attempt. I just don’t think it would make me any better to go to a place I don’t know. I’ve got issues with feeling safe.

i love the piano. I’ve never played but I love piano. When you say that you withdrew, does that work for you? Withdrawing is a warning sign for me because I lose more ‘touch with reality’ (I don’t know how to explain that) when I don’t have interactions with real people. I guess we’re all different.

take care apple