My pleasure@petrichor 

It was weird for me that you mentioned fruit bats ... It was a positive memory for me of one who had suicided... a bit synchronistic, but I do not want to make it all about me. 

I am hearing that you have done a lot of different work.  Emotional work on self.  Been successful in career and attempt to make responsible decisions and are sensitive to the negative impacts of self harm and suicide.  I have a high functioning side and a very very damaged side.  Both are true. So its a Me too without the hashtag ... lol ... I am too old to be in that generation ....and do not relate to thier concept.

It can be a problem when MH professionals do not realise how much work we may have done.   Possibly the MH professional is young and been supported irl, and has some airy goodwill towards others, but insufficent grit of imagination and understanding of historical realities to offer adequate apppropriate strategies.  Real psychosocial help sees the whole picture without collapsing into moral judgment or impatience about progress.  

It has helped me to talk and be involved in the Sane forum.