Haha @Eve7  you got it all sorted then! I like to think I can do it all without a man too! 

Yeah @Jynx  ive done a bit today. Something about making sure I push myself extra hard when feeling like this. Every time I have a scary moment it’s a remind for the ED that it’s doing a good job. It like a reward? Pretty *#%€ing messed up. 

we walk to the duck pond and do a lap then stop at the playground so D can have a play. I lay on the big swing and watch the clouds.