@Bow  You are not horrible, you are hurting. They are miles and miles apart.

I don’t know if it’s possible for you to stay home today, going out sounds daunting . The sad thing about mental illness, is there is no visible evidence, no bandages, plaster, wheelchair, just debilitating, agonising pain.

I don’t know if there is someone at church who understands, who could sit with you and care.

I understand wanting to trade places with people, wanting the pain over and done with.

I hope your dad is ok.

@Bow  I don’t think I’ve said one helpful thing to you this morning, but I’m sitting with you. Leaving a coffee. I’m listening to the bird song at the moment. Sending 💙💙💙