I really try hard to face life positively, but it just isn’t working.  I don’t feel physically well, though there is nothing specifically wrong with me.  I have had long bouts of depression since my early twenties, and I am back there now for the last three years.  The black dog has now been joined by severe anxiety and due to some very traumatic events that left me without mt career of 50 years I now have PTSD.  This has only been recognised recently.  I have no interest in friends or family. Have no money have had to move home and this  been another trauma for me that I can’t seem to move past. 

I live with my youngest son who is 35 and has his own mh ussues and can be very difficult.i constantly think about death as my only option. But I just want to be happy, not deleteriously so, just happy.  I have no partner and still grieve for my husband who died many years ago. 

I can find nothing enriching in life 

That is enough for now.  Peri