@PeppiPatty You are the first person who had a go at relating the whole of me .. as I began posting on the forum .. am very very very fond of you .. 

it helps me keep keeping on

I so love that @BlueBay took control of her identity and changed her pic and name.  

It doesnt mean we are not sad ... I was a SAD girl too .. now I have a range of feelings bubbling along under the surface.

Logging off for now .. but this forum is the first time I have been accepted without having to be totally compliant and invisible.  I have been able to ask questions, make contradictory statements etc.  i dont do that often or for the sake of it .. but being able to do that and still be me .. not just useful or compliant which is the way i do generally see me .. but the sadness and energy nand cretivity are also a part ..

Cheerio Friends

Apple