@maddison dont be worried, im very lucky that i expect very little from life, when you dont know what you are missing in life you dont, miss it  and im almost always happy , its one of the few benefits of being simple.  i hope hope you have a happy place in your head you can go to.  i saw a post from some one who has been trying to find a social site just for people with autism, so  im sure there is a need, for this there are lots of people with learning difficulties and im hoping one day someone sets some thing up, and ive asked them to let me know if they ever finds anything,  it is hard when you are not in a room with people that are similar in the brain department, but you just have to keep asking and looking. you take care and i leave you in peace thanks for everything