Hey @Teej. I was up most of last night, the first half with feelings happening and the second half with physical happenings. I had a few hours of the most intense pain and other not nice stuff which I found very difficult to get through. My cat, some meds and a heat pack calmed me down and I crashed for about an hour this morning.

Friend cracked it at me last night. He wanted to come over but I asked to be on my own which didn't go down well. I was on the receiving end of what I imagine to be a heap of his own big feelings pouring out which I understand but seriously didn't need. He said some pretty horrible stuff 😔. It made it all much harder than it already was, but confirmed how legitmate my fears about bringing a child into this were.

I'm in a whole of struggle at the moment in a few different ways but I truly believe I made the right choice. All I need to do this morning is get the kids to school and then I can process and deal with what's happening and happened.

Thanks for your thoughts and support Teej. I hope your night was OK and your morning has started well.