Hi @Aphrodite

I found it hard to read your posts because of my cataracts - but I think I have the gist of them

You have the kind of family that would go nicely with mine - luckily I have two siblings and that is 2 too many - so I get it

Strange - although I missed what you posted yesterday I dreamed about my siblings last night - it was so vivid - and I could see them so clearly - I decided to leave them doing whatever it was they were doing - and one of them danced up and down telling me I didn't care and I didn't care - that's so true - and the other one followed me around like they did when we were kids and I had to stamp my foot at them like I do with my cat - and I just had to tell you this - because our dreams tell us a lot

Your family sounds terrible - but because your family is terrible that doesn't make you bad - I know it hurts and families do gang up on one member at times

I am sorry you are going through all of this - it's life and it's not at all fair

But we can't choose our families - we can choose what we become ourself - I have a lot of trouble forgiving one of my siblings - not because of what they did to me but because of the sorrow they called our parents - but even the - our parents chose to believe her lies and I have no control over that - so I guess in seeing this I have been understanding at least

I can't say time heals all things - I don't think it does - but time gives us space to grow ourselves

And we are better off keeping ourselves from vexatious spirits - they do us no good but certainly cause us harm

But thank you for sharing - it is in sharing that we can learn that it is okay to feel this way as long as we can eventually move on - moving on takes place in its own time - but you have said it all now - or some of it anyway

Decadian