@BabyBear wrote:
@BPDSurvivor,
You have my empathy. What is it about Borderline that puts us naturally at the moderate to high-risk level?
I'm not opposed to the moderate risk rating I’m given. It has the function of making me feel safe & in turn, my family are happier.
Self-harm sees automatic ejection from the private hospital & involuntary admission into another. It must be difficult to be routinely admitted to the PICU.
I'm not sure if being regularly admitted to PICU was a blessing in disguise. It sounds bad, but I have to remember:
1) If i wasn't put in PICU, I may not be alive today
2) All the admissions meant I was assigned a case manager.
Please note, I did NOT try to get admitted so many times so I could get a case manager. I know BPD holds the stigma that borderlines are 'attention seekers'. That's a myth.
So once I had a case manager (who was fortunately a psychologist), so many opportunities opened up. They were able to refer me to PARC whenever I needed, I could call psychiatric triage and all my notes were given to my case manager to follow up, I had house visits, CATT intervention when needed, and I pretty much had a therapy session every week, on top of my other therapist.
I'm not going to complain about any of my BPD journey because I feel it has led me to where I am now. I feel I'm here for a reason.
Oh, i haven't even answered your question "What is it about Borderline that puts us naturally at the moderate to high-risk level?" For me, I felt that the emotional pain was so intense that risk was an outlet. Every emotional bump sent searing pain throughout the body. That's the only way I can explain it @BabyBear
