@hanami 

It is eating away at me. 

As an older male, I feel invisible when it comes to being able to discuss having been SA -d in a hospital. But I cannot keep it in or forget about it. Goodness knows I have tried.

I did tell my treating psychiatrist about it in the clinic last year, and she suggested that I join a men's shed. This is fine if you need some interaction and socialisation but not where I'm at at the moment.

And I am damn sure that the people who committed these acts are well aware of how much they can get away with. Institutional abuse is way too common - sadly