@Jayneinpain 

Hi Jayneinpain

Yes, I connect with the self doubt issue. We can be really hard on ourselves, particularly when a finite resource is getting perilously close to exhausted, whether that be time or money.

From the way that you write, I am aware that you would be conscious of the other person's position. Your observation about the developed capacity to plan an escape or way out being based on the experience of neglect or abuse in childhood is apt.

It seems apparent to me that you are dealing with issues on a number of fronts. The one to be addressed at the moment, as you have said, is accommodation and work for income. There appear to be other issues that you are actually in the process of dealing with, but over a longer term.

The covid issue seems to have turned a lot of things upside down. I understand that there is pressure on the rural/smallish town real estate market as a result of people looking to find places out of the cities, also as an escape plan, to have alternative accommodation available in the event of a declared lock-down. While, I presume that there would be those who can afford to keep their city home and also rent in the “country”, it means that, what would have been properties, particularly in the rural areas close to major towns and cities, that may have been difficult to let, are now being “soaked-up” by this demand.

Unfortunately, the weather in the southern parts of Australia is more conducive to being around a fireplace than being outside for any reason. And I hear what you are saying about being alone, cold, confused, disheartened and trying not to panic.

I am really “talking” with you about how you are feeling and your thoughts. Unfortunately, I cannot literally talk with you directly, however, if you feel that the discussion here is not able to address your concerns, I presume that you are aware that there are phone numbers available on this site where you can speak with someone 1:1 if that would be of help to you.

Please let me know if there is anything, in terms of information, that you think I may be able to assist with

With Best Wishes

HenryX