@BlueBay ,

Thank you for sharing. 

The lack of validation you have highlighted reminds me of my childhood. I never had real friends. I never went to school camps. I never had 'friends' over. I never went to parties. I never spoke about my fears and emotions.

My existence was about being 'good' on the outside.

To this day, I have never been hugged by my mother nor told she loves me. 

However, I do not blame anybody for the situation. I cannot change whatever has happened, and I must now work with it to improve my quality of life. I needed to acknowledge my childhood and understand it played a part in my BPD, I so that I could move on and work with my weaknesses.

It has not been an easy road but I have proved it is possible. @BlueBay , Open yourself up to the opportunities which await you. There is recovery. 

I am more than ready and willing to ride this out with you @BlueBay .

BPDSurvivor

xxxooo