Hi @BPDSurvivor , thank you for your post, your ambitions are very admirable! I am stuck at the moment & looking at getting away for a while to hit the reset button. My depression has been out of control & I am not coping with day to day life right now. I can't even turn off long enough for any mindfulness skills/techniques to even start working. I have been looking at mental health retreats & would like to know if yourself or anyone else on here has attended one? I don't have a lot of money and I don't have private health cover either (just to throw a spanner in the works). Any information or suggestions would be greatly appreciated!