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Good morning sis @outlander 

Hoping today goes well for you hon.

Lots of love and hugs 💜💜💜

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im not to sure @Sophia1 i just feel like im struggling with everything atm but not really a specific thing if that makes sense? it kind of all just has combined together to make it just a mess 😞

i feel like im really failing atm 😞 esp with caring.
im trying not to let the drinking turn into a habit. i was drink quite a lot last week and over the weekend, i still get the urge today but im trying to study and just get this assignment done even though im not really motivated

i use to love reading, use to have my own library in my room and still wasnt enough space so often had boxes under the bed with even more books but i dont read anymore. i really only read my study stuff. i find it to hard to concentrate now on storylines and things.


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@outlander 

Sorry things are so hard for you at the moment.

Here if you need to chat

 

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Oh dear @outlander 

 

Life has been very hard on you since I first encountered you on here and probably before that time..

We do not end up on the forums for something to do in our spare time do we...

We come here looking for answers...that are nowhere to be found when we need them immediately in real life..

 

Your family situation...burden...has been a living nightmare for you..

Then you found yourself caring for your Pop.....the others would not even consider the option..

 

Sorry...I do not mean to openly disrespect your family..

I have not forgotten all of what you have written about in regard to what they have put you through..

 

It is all of the above along with quite some time experiencing health issues...having neverending tests..

 

Your injury which on it's own makes the average person feel wretched and fed up with life....unless they are waited on hand and foot ..inclined to be lazy.... That my friend is most definitely not you..

 

With all of the above and health situation re your pop it has led you to a place of self blame....as you are not receiving the help that you deserve elsewhere..

 

Self blame...feelings of failing are very much a part of the carer world...

Listen to the expert here....

I am currently grappling with stopping myself from doing this around the worsening health of my older son again..

I have had to put in place some firm boundaries around content of phone calls from him where he dictates to me if I dare say one word..

 

It is an awful...useless....draining emotion....

Guilt

 

I am just thinking as I write about this if we might change the word itself.....shifting language...shifting thinking can bring about the tiniest change within our brains..

This can bring about a change in our thinking...following on with some effect on our feelings...following on with some of our go to place of self blame..

 

This might all be far too deep for you and end up giving you a headache than any support...I certainly hope not..

 

One last thing..

As you know I am an unpaid carer...

I heard in discussion with a co-ordinator of Carers that the government has placed a fair amount of money in mental health....

mental health care plans are about 20 for a year all paid by medicare and I believe can be done via tele-health? telephone anyway..if not a local counsellor....you have an injury though and are also a carer...

 

Also Carers are focussing their buckets of money on younger carers..

 

You do not necessarily have to attend support groups..I remember that you mentioned it did nothing for you..

You can participate in online programmes...I know more on-line..

You definitely can have some telephone counselling...whatever age as a carer.. 6 sessions free

I am in the process of doing this and have found it helpful..

So before you say.....No

 

You are really going to be annoyed with me by the end of this...

 

Drinking alcohol as a way of forgetting...trying to erase...numb the emotions is referred to as self-medicating which you probably already know...

If you are feeling urges during the day... that will not help your settling of your emotions as you are fighting the urge..

It is your body saying help my mind please....

It is time for you to get some help for outlander..

 

Counselling would be very helpful for you at this time..

A visit to the doctor where they take a double appointment to prepare a mental health plan for your welfare...

 

A telephone call to Carers who can refer you for some counselling sessions..

 

I remember already saying this to you...

 

I hope that you are ready to at least look into it..

 

You can avoid the slippery slope of alcohol dependency if you act now rather than later..

 

Self care..

 

ps I understand totally about the not being able to read...

I go through periods of that myself....I adore books and reading..

Went to the library yesterday..first time in ages...

Started reading a few pages last night in bed..

 

💜🧡💚💛

 

 

 

 

 

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Thanks @Sophia1 Heart

I am part of both carers aust and young carers. Young carers not all that helpful though I must admit. I think im just stuck atm. Like talking to someone might help short term but I also just get tired of talking about the same things all the time. It gets repetitive even for me, but its because my circumstances also just dont change.
I cant get him into a respite, not with lockdown and not ever. I tried but he can say no which he will and he got aggressive and really went downhill when I mentioned a respite cottage for a week. He doesnt even like staying away from home more then a day or so. I had hoped that he couldve went to my aunts and he probably can but itll only be a day. I think im just beyond the point of having a day here and there, I really need a few weeks but that wont happen.

Yes your right, this injury is taking its toll and ive been told I also have nerve damamge and might take another 8 weeks till I might be on my feet. I just feel so tired and lethargic lately.

Guilt is a strong emotion indeed. I feel bad that right now I dont even want to be in the same house. Im just tired or something.burnt out.


Ive spoken to a few counsellors before but I dont really like it. Not sure why, I just dont really like talking to them on a regular basis and started to make me feel worse rather then better a few years ago. I do talk to sane sometimes though on their helpline or the dementias australia helpline.
I havent had any alcohol today, I probbaly wont for abit now but its sad that it come down to that. Im trying to focus on my studies. Maybe if I can do that, itll help me work towards another job or something.

you mentioned online programs...? where would i be able to find those? i havent seen or heard about those before. would you mind sharing a link for them, those might be helpful

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@outlander 💗

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Good morning sweetheart @outlander 

Wishing you a good day sis

Lots of love and hugs 💗💗💗

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Good morning sis @outlander 

Missing you hon, hoping things are ok 💕💕

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