What the fuck is wrong with me

[ArraDreaming]

Why do I feel like this 

I have everything I want and I still feel like complete shit and a waste of space 

and I’m so scared that I feel this way because I remember how unwell I got in 2017 ish and I never want to go back there but why do I feel like this why do I feel like I’m going in cycles sometimes everything’s fine sometimes life is so f draining and depressing

how can I feel so bleak and miserable when I have a job I love a partner I adore and 2 beautiful children 

[Eve7]

I don’t know why you feel this way @ArraDreaming but I’m sorry that you do. Life can be like that and even though all our needs are being met we can still feel miserable while on the other hand people with much less appear much happier.

It can be scary when we have a struggle with mental health and see our disenchantment as a trigger before the inevitable crash.

I really hope you have a good psychologist or GP who can support you right now.

Lots of love 💕 

[ArraDreaming]

I don’t

[wellwellwellnez]

i was talking to a counselor the other day who explained to me that people often get more self-critical when they do better. It's part of what makes us always want to do better still. Us humans are 98% journey and 2% destination. That's what we are.

[NatureLover]

If it's depression, then it's a chemical imbalance in the brain and not to do with your circumstances...I mean, depression can be due to circumstances, but not always, I think. 

Hoping you feel better soon, @ArraDreaming ...

[Appleblossom]

@ArraDreaming I found it difficult without good guidance from a counsellor, so maybe look for online approaches that "speak" to you.

As @wellwellwellnez There is a good part of dissatisfaction which spurs us on, but it can be undercut by many subliminal messages that we are not good enough and ought to be perfect somehow.

Parenting young kids is a busy intense time.

[Paperdaisy]

Hi @ArraDreaming I can understand that. I too have all those things and still have bad days. Raising young children is so exhausting and relentless. Even when you have some respite, you are still thinking about them and planning the next thing you have to do for them. I'm getting a lot of support from my psychologist around this, it really helps to have someone external as a sounding board. It's also been helpful to break old patterns of thinking, as you say sometimes you can just keep repeating the 'cycle'. 

[ArraDreaming]

I have seen so many people since I was a kid and iM OVER IT

[ArraDreaming]

It’s bull shit and I’m over it

[ArraDreaming]

Nobody can help me