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[Lee82]

No I am not in a very good head space at the moment. Thank you so much for asking sweet pea.

@Bunniekins 

have you been going for your walks hun? 

[Bunniekins]

@Lee82  I go about 4 times a week twice a week with support worker and the other times with daughter. Since my neighbour left my early morning walks have taken a back seat as where I live it is a bit dodgy to say the least to walk alone at 4.30.

[Lee82]

Wow pea. That is amazing. So wonderful to hear hun. Good on you. 
@Bunniekins 

[Bunniekins]

@Lee82  You are so sweet Lee82  thank you:). I wish life was treating you kinder ..... hugs and hugs my friend 🙂

[Lee82]

Thank you sweets so very much. I am just over it all. I don't have anything left. 

@Bunniekins 

[Bunniekins]

@Lee82  yes I can definately appreciate that. I dont know what the answer is though .... funny I tried to express it earlier in the worry room but the moderator (fair enough) thought what I wrote was against guidelines ..... makes it hard when you want to discuss it all though and are unable without the fear of being locked away in some mental health ward.

[Lee82]

Oh pea you have read my mind. I feel the same way. It's so hard when you have to be careful with what you say. I know the things I want to say and discuss with my psych would definitely get me into a psych ward but the burden of having all these feelings and emotions bottled up is not good. I feel like a pressure cooker. 
@Bunniekins 

[Bunniekins]

@Lee82  Have you got anyone close that you can trust with your inner most feelings etc? I have family but I cant they would never forgive me and hate me forever so I have to live with it .... suck it up pea ....

[Lee82]

No pea. Like you I have no one I can trust. All alone here irl. 
we should not have to suck it up hun. 
@Bunniekins 

[Bunniekins]

@Lee82  Hugs and hugs Lee82.  My eyes started getting wet when I read your words. Thing is so many people think I should..... You are a good person Lee82. I wish you had someone close. Maybe one day if I ever trust I will say those words I keep close to my chest.