Hi to , @outlander @Eve7 @Anastasia @Shaz51 @Emelia8
i am posting because I am so sad, I hate being retired I hate being well sort of no one now. And today an ongoing family feud sort of blew up in my face. I had tried to extend the hand of friendship to a sister and she virtually told me to ........ off and forget her. We are not close but she is family and I don’t like family disruption. It has really hurt, as I did not intend to upset her. I need to just let it go, and I will but tonight I feel a bit fragile. Relationships can so easily be damaged and not repaired. One can lose everything, and in reality no one else gives a shit, so long as they are ok.
My soul feels hollow.
I have seemed to see that family is a very loose term. The people I could call family are few now. And the most important is the family you create yourself. So that is me and my sons. Even grandchildren are not my family, they are their parents family.
All their is really is yourself, life is ultimately a lonely business.it amazes me that so many people survive to old age.
i have largely lost my appetite, I have no motivation to meet friends, or go out to anything that I once would have enjoyed. I don’t even want to walk in the sunshine or see the ocean, I’ve seen them, why would I need to see them again. I used be be religious about skin care, now I barely do anything, it just doesn’t matter.
and I don’t know how to make things matter again
peri
