Not Coping

[ENKELI]

@Birdofparadise8 because you have had to endure a nasty shock which hasn't been resolved yet, you need to calm down as Taylor would say, take deep breaths sweetie. What are your coping tools?

[Birdofparadise8]

I don't know; I'm just crying now @ENKELI 

I'm a mess. 

I won't cope for two months. I just won't. 

I have no skills, I'm to distressed to do anything. i just need to let it out I think. I feel so broken right now. 

Ah okay I hope your internet issues are getting resolved @tyme 

[tyme]

Rejection hurts - whether it's real or imagined. @Birdofparadise8 

Yet also consider that at some point, you will age out of RO. These are just baby steps. 

I know it's probably not the right time now, but when you feel able to, consider what learning you can gain from this not-so-pleasant situation.

There's learning in everything. 

But for tonight, it's just about getting through. If you need to cry, go for it. If you need to eat your carrot cake, go for it. If you need to be on these forums, go for it. If you need to call KHL, go for it. 

[ENKELI]

@Birdofparadise8 it's all so overwhelming at the moment so like @tyme said, cry, eat cake, breathe, watch a movie or TV, something to take your mind off it. 

If you have a diffuser or oil burner, get yourself some bergamot oil. It is good for assisting in calming you down.

[Birdofparadise8]

Yeah, I know that once I'm 26, but that's a while away, and it's a planned thing. This just happened at 6 pm on a Friday night, right when I wasn't feeling too bad talking to my parents, and next, I saw on my watch a notification from RO. I was thinking, hmm, odd. I've been mentioning I'm safe and all that, so I'm unsure what's happened, and then I saw the email. 

What do you mean, real or imagined? It's definitely real. I don't know what guideline I've broken, but I thought I had said everything right. 

it just gives so much state of rejection. I know you might not understand how I feel when it comes to talking to people and all that. 

But for me, it hurts so much. 

this isn't a baby step. It's a forced situation I don't get any say in. They know how I feel about this. I've asked them to come to me and talk to me first before deleting posts and banning me, which I thought they were going to do, but obviously not. 

8 weeks is so long. Uni sem will be over by then. So much time. All the people I chat to on there. I care about them. 

It hurts so much now I'm sobbing. 

[Birdofparadise8]

I'm just in bed sobbing. I don't have any bergamot oil @ENKELI; I have others, but the diffuser is in the living room. I couldn't be stuffed to get it. This is going to be a hard eight weeks. I just need this pain to stop @ENKELI 

Why does it hurt so much? 

[ENKELI]

@tyme and thank you for the suggestions, they are of benefit to me too 🤗😍

[Birdofparadise8]

Have you had dinner @ENKELI 

I hope the spaghetti was nice. 

[ENKELI]

@Birdofparadise8 yes the sgetti wasn't bad thanks. I forgot to make garlic bread though.

I'm watching Gilmore Girls and chuckling at the advent of technology. They're using ADSL and flip phones. I then checked when it was filmed and it's 20 years old! I feel old now!

[Birdofparadise8]

Hahaha, it is an old one @ENKELI