Not Coping

[creative_writer]

@tyme, the heat can aggravate the pain, but I’m trying to stay cool and had lots of H2O 😎. I’ve put my skincare into the fridge, would be nice to have cool skincare tonight. I think I did need to break the circuit, PRNs do work well, I’ve always been avoiding too much light today due to sensitivity. Too much light can aggravate issues with migraines and agitation. I needed to reduce my sensory load today

[Snowie]

Not too good @creative_writer Nurse on this afternoon was ugh.

How are you?

[Birdofparadise8]

Thank you @creative_writer 

So do I. 

What are you doing tonight?

[tyme]

Hey @Snowie , how's today treating you?

@Birdofparadise8 , I'm slowly getting through all the posts and I'm reading a lot about you thinking no on e cares, and perhaps abandonment? Is that what you are referring to? Just a questions, are you satisfied within yourself?

[creative_writer]

@Snowie, better than I have been for a while, not perfect, but a step in the right direction I hope. Took a few PRNs to get here.

@Birdofparadise8, I’m not really doing much tonight. I’m in front of the fan. Chilling on the bed. I might go back to trying to memorise Quran verses. I’ll try to go to bed early (maybe around 10:00-10:30) because getting up early helps me be productive

[creative_writer]

@Snowie, sorry to hear the nurse you got wasn’t helpful. Sending you lots of love 💖🫂

[Birdofparadise8]

Yes exactly @tyme 

Oh well, I hate myself, I don't have a job, and it's not like my depression is in the best spot, and I don't have any self-worth, and I'm crap at self-compassion. So I guess not. But hey, once I get a job and uni starts, things will be a little better. 

[Birdofparadise8]

Ah okay cool @creative_writer 

I find that as well. When I get up earlier I do a lot more. 

I'm making a healthier Weetbix slice and a dinner mint. I'll post the recipes tomorrow. 

[Snowie]

thanks @creative_writer 

@tyme they won't start ect till at least Wednesday now. Pdoc wants a meeting with hubby and myself Monday afternoon. Freaking out about that one.

So looks like I will be in here for longer then 2 weeks now. Since I was taking so many prn before I came in, the prn I get know don't feel like that are really doing anything.

Bored, frustrated, angry, annoyed....could keep going.

[tyme]

Argh @Snowie ,

That sounds annoying @Snowie that it's so frustrating. I wonder if you will find some inner talent you have hiding while you are there? I hope the meeting goes well.

@Birdofparadise8 , I wonder if the work is to work on your relationship with yourself rather than relying on external things to soothe you? I know this was the case for me. I used to rely on people saying the right thing or doing the right thing, but now, I find I don't care at all because being 'okay' comes from within. I'm not sure I'm making sense. And remember, you have honestly come so far. Don't let this little hiccup pull you down.

@creative_writer Nice idea about putting skincare in the fridge. I never thought of doing that! It must feel so smoothing on your skin when it comes to using it! I might try it.