Not Coping

[Birdofparadise8]

Once I have my GP appointment at 2 pm, I need to go to Kmart, and they will come back home. 

Mum and I got a solid wood bedside table that was $500 for $150 on sale. I couldn't believe it. 

I really wanted a wooden one as all the others need to be assembled. @Blackbird11 

@tyme, I mentioned the table to you, didn't I? Can you believe that? I'll show you both a photo once it arrives. I'm very excited. 

[Blackbird11]

That's good @Birdofparadise8 

Have a good day 🙂 I'm off to work now. 

[Birdofparadise8]

Bye @Blackbird11 

[tyme]

Nice @Birdofparadise8 ! Hope you are okay 🙂 Looking forward to seeing the tables.

[Birdofparadise8]

Hi @tyme 

No, not really. I had a session with my psych today, and I told him how I felt sad last night and that I was crying, but I couldn't explain why I was sad. I hope I didn't disappoint him at all. 

He seemed a bit worried once my mum went home. If I didn't get a job soon, I would get worse again. 

I'm not feeling that great now, either. 
Mum has just left. I want to cry again. 
I’ll take a photo of the new plants I got and the bedside table. 

[Birdofparadise8]

Hey @Blackbird11 

Did work go okay? I hope nothing serious happened. 

[tyme]

Sorry to hear that @Birdofparadise8 . Sounds tough. But you are in your new place, right? Are other people there yet?

Sometimes, any change can trigger feelings of emptiness. Understand that this is okay. I hope you were able to go through some of it with your psych and perhaps work towards what you ideally want in life.

Are you still going ahead with the meet-up on the 13th?

[Birdofparadise8]

Yes, I'm in the new one @tyme 

No one moved in on the 27th of Jan, and the other one moved in last year and must have gone home for the holidays. 

No, I'm not. I talked to , my mum about it, and she said if I go down there, it's over an hour away, and it's at his place. I can't escape if anything goes wrong, and he could drug the food or something. 

I think he seems too needy and texts me every day, and if I don't reply, he texts me again constantly. He's not really my type as well. 

Yeah, maybe I do feel empty. Mum is gone. I've started crying. I just don't feel worthy or anything. It's a The new year and all that. I don't understand why everyone makes such a big deal about it. It's just so hard when everything is just the same as last year. Nothing will ever change. I'll just stay like this and properly get worse. 

Anyway, don't worry about it. You've finished now. 

[Blackbird11]

Hey @Birdofparadise8 ✨️

I went to work with a positive mindset today and I've had a really good day. Hope your appointments went well?

I'm getting sleepy, good night

[Birdofparadise8]

 

 

@Blackbird11 @tyme