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My Mosaic

Bow
Senior Contributor

Re: My Mosaic

Hmm yes spikey mat may help @Jynx  i like to lay on it and then throw a nice fluffy blankie over 

keeps me warm and cozy 

Jynx
Peer Support Worker

Re: My Mosaic

Oooh yes @Bow I will help get you all tucked in!! Fluff and spike, fluff and spike! Love it 😋

Bow
Senior Contributor

Re: My Mosaic

You think one day it will be different @Jynx? One day it will be easier? 
cause I so tired

dont wanna anymore 

Jynx
Peer Support Worker

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@Bow I do hun. I think you have so much more power to change than you realise. Some day, hopefully some day soon, something will click/shift within you... I see it all the time after a dark night of the soul. Yours have been dark years, maybe so... but doesn't mean it hasn't prepared you for what you're gonna do in the world - y'know, when the world is ready for you 😉

 

How you tracking with the spikey-fest, is it helpful? 

 

Huuuuugs!! 

Bow
Senior Contributor

Re: My Mosaic

I hope so @Jynx  i hope it’s not all just wishful thinking and fluffy talk. Cause now ain’t got much more inside

 

spikey mat has helped a little. Not drifting off so much.  
but I’m tired 

Jynx
Peer Support Worker

Re: My Mosaic

@Bow funny thing... fluffy talk, wishful thinking? Ain't automatically bad in my books. Nah, to me, they're as important as anything, perhaps most important of all. Because.... Hmm how do I summarise lol

 

Okay think of like... a really driven, motivated person, who is absolutely deadset on learning guitar. Do you reckon they get better at it when they imagine themself as a rockstar, or when they imagine themself as a gutter-rat? 

 

The way we imagine our futures is SO IMPORTANT.... cos if we only picture pain and misery, that's all we're gonna be subconsciously moving towards. If we think fluffy thoughts about a life that we will cherish, then that's what we're gonna start moving towards instead!! Or at least... that's what I've found in my own recovery anyway. 

 

Do you remember when we dreamed up your perfect lil cottage? That wasn't wishful thinking hun, that was you imagining and building hope for a future that looks different to the one that I imagine has felt inevitable for a while. But nothing, NOTHING is set in stone. And the more we focus on the fluffy thoughts, the less time the yucky ones are taking up brain space!

~

 

Yes for sure, big tired is very likely after a floaty day like today. Did you manage to check on your little one? No guilt if you didn't hun, you can only do what you can do. I thought I'd ask cos then maybe we can start talking about next steps till bedtime? 

Bow
Senior Contributor

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@Jynx You remember my little cottage?!
I remember sitting on my bed telling you about it and doing a little drawing doodle of it. 

I did check in on her. Peeled myself off the ground and she was ready for bed.
D and all the animals fed and settled for the night.

Took my meds.

House is disaster but I will try deal with that tomorrow. 

Jynx
Peer Support Worker

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Course I do @Bow! Teehee, it's actually quite a fond memory of mine, felt like we really bonded 😊

Aww cute, still got the doodle? Maybe it could become a painting some time!! 

 

You've done amazingly!! Proud of you. And sounds like D is all good, gladness.

 

Haha you and me both!! Maybe we can motivate each other through the aether - if I start to lose steam I can think "Oh but Bow is probably flat out too!! We got stuff to dooooo!!!" hehehe

 

I shall say g'night!! Hope you get off to sleep ok deary, and I'll catch up with you next week 💜🫂

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Good morning @Bow 

Hoping your Sunday is going well

💕💕

Bow
Senior Contributor

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Morning @Snowie 

 

I just finished giving the whole house a good vacuum. Took ages. Tidied up a bit along the way. 

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