My Mosaic

[Bow]

Yep I will ask about any other groups @Jynx  my name was supposed to to be put down to do the long DBT course. I’ve done a short 15 week one. 

yep, I will post a pic tomorrow once I’ve got them done. 

excuse my ignorance, but what is body doubling? 

Sunday we managed to get to church for my old pastors farewell. It had been a while, so it was nice to see people. Did a bit of packing and then took D to get her hair braided. She picked an ombré colour, green, pink, purple and blue. It looks really cool and she loves it. 

[Jynx]

@Bow oh neat! Hope you get into it and find some new ones to boot! 

Oh! It's a term I've picked up in ND spaces, basically for me, I genuinely struggle to begin/stay on/switch focus between difficult tasks, but if there's another person there it helps me stay accountable and kinda keeps me grounded I spose. Like I'm far less likely to get distracted by another task if someone is there to say 'hey whatcha doin?' when they see me wandering away from the dirty dishes... 😝 More info here!

And there's a related concept, parallel play, which is similar but it's more like sharing space to do fun activities, instead of trying to accomplish a task. Like if I was set up in one half of the room doing some crafting and my partner was in the other doing some sewing or something. I guess it's like hanging out, but without the obligation of having to converse - which is awesome when you're low on spoons. No one wants to waste precious energy on small talk when there is crafting to be done!!

Aww how was the service after all? Big feels? 

Teehee she'd look like a mermaid, I love!

[Bow]

So you both helped each other stay focused and on task by just being there @Jynx ? That’s cool. And I liked the parallel play concept. That’s kinda like arts and craft group… sometimes. Crafting and creating together but no real pressure to talk I guess. I like it. 

the service was ok. I just sat back and watched. Did not get involved cause I didn’t wanna have the water works turned on. 

I’m struggling a bit tonight. I’m frustrated with my body. I’m eating better. My intake is better, but my body is still struggling a lot with low energy. I’m super tired tonight. Really wanna go to bed. Trying to tell myself that I was busy today. And it was hot and I was out in that heat for a while. So it’s ok to bed tired. I guess it just makes me frustrated. I guess I worry. What if I don’t have the energy to go go go in the UK?? I get annoyed with my body. 

oh and here is a pic…. 🙂 

 

[Jynx]

Yeah I love it! No pressure to talk but still getting some social energy is actually so refreshing hey @Bow 

Aww hun, I can totally understand the concern! And like, big recovery mood too - "I did everything right and I still feel crappy" could be a rallying cry for folks with MHI sometimes LOL

But for real though, it may feel pointless now but like... on every single level right on down to the cellular, you're doing your body good. And absolutely take the heat into account!! Even if you've been putting effort in (which, well done btw SO proud of you!) your body is probably not fully recovered yet, so just like how our resilience to mental stress is lowered when we've had some emotional turmoil, our physical resilience takes a hit when our bodies have to work extra hard to regulate temperature and stuff. 

I reckon you'll be ok in the UK - you might get hit with the tired at the most annoying times, but you also might find a reservoir of energy whenever you are seeing something new and exciting! 

OMG haha love it! Also... found this the other night LOL someone REALLY didn't like the Elf!! 

[Bow]

Yea need to remind myself @Jynx that I have spent so many years hating my body and trying to destroy it, it’s not gonna heal and come right after a few weeks of slowly trying to look after it. It’s gonna take time. And hopefully the much cooler weather will work in my favor! 

and definitely relate…. I did everything right and I still feel crappy!

omg haha that pic is funny. Some exhausted mum got sick of the long term commitment that is elf and that was the result!

im gonna try and get some sleep. I will come looking for you tomorrow to get my last Jynx fix before I go!

[Jynx]

@Bow aye for sure, and it can be hard to remind ourselves of that! Hmm an art project for next year maybe, a little art piece to help remind you? Hmm I'll see if I can find a good quote!

Haha cool weather yes - and much drizzling! Hope you got some wellies!

Nighty night darlin! Catch ya tomorrow for our last chat before toodle-oo time!! 😊 Sleep well 💜

[Bow]

Hiya @Jynx my friend! Greeting you with a huge squishy hug!

[Jynx]

And a squishy hug right back @Bow 😊

How's your day before leaving going?

[Snowie]

Hi @Bow 

I'm not sure if you'll be around much tonight or on tomorrow at all.

Just wanting to wish you an awesome time away. I hope you, D and your mum enjoy every moment and make some lasting memories. Hoping too that it's not too cold!!

I'll be thinking of you lots hon and missing you and our chats together.

Sending lots of hugs.

Stay safe but most of all have fun.

💕💕

[Bow]

It’s been pretty ok @Jynx  went and got my nails done and grabbed a few last minute bits and pieces from the shops. Came home and scrubbed the shower and breathed in way too much bleach! :nauseated_face: and just been fluffing about doing bits and stuff around the house. Now just waiting for our house sitters to arrive. I was looking forward to meeting them but now my anxiety is ….. 

they arrived before I could finish my message. They were lovely