My Mosaic

[Snowie]

oh @Bow I'm so sorry about your SW. I know how much of a support they were for you.

Sitting with you hon 💕💕

[Bow]

This is my bunting @Ru-bee 

 

9m in total ( 3 x3m) hardest part was sewing the triangles into the bias binding. I had to unpick a lot and redo it. 

My SW was amazing. She came with me to nearly all my appointments. She allowed me to communicate how I needed to (writing is often easier for me and none of my other supports will let me do it). She always just went above and beyond, like leaving her phone on a little longer so I could call or text her that I got home safely. She always knew what to ask, I trusted her. And we had a lot in common, similar interests etc. so we just clicked. She also understood my ED. She hasn’t had one, but a family member did. 
I’ve been handed over to another SW. my preferred fill in when she was away. There is zero transition time. 
I feel sick

[Ru-bee]

That bunting is beautiful @Bow! I sometimes feel like I spend half of my time un-picking seams when I sew, but these came out great!

I can hear that this will be a significant change, this SW sounds like they were such a good fit and it will really be an adjustment to not have them there. I suppose it is a small blessing that you will be working with the SW who sounds like they would be your next choice, but regardless this sounds like has been a real surprise, and not a pleasant one. 

[rav3n]

so sorry to hear about the SW @Bow, i can see that her support meant so much to you and i'm so glad you were able to have someone as caring as her in your journey. i know that this news must've been a bit of shock, so please do take some time to process it. i know that i find sudden changes like this quite emotionally overwhelming too. 

did your SW mention anything about passing over notes to the new SW? hopefully that can facilitate a smoother transition. 

also LOVE the bunting!!! 

[Bow]

@Ru-bee  I started sewing a baby romper last week…. I need to finish it. I think sewing the bunting bought back a bit of my sewing mogo. I’m using an embroidered table cloth on the romper too…. This is what I use to love to make for my daughter 

 

 I use to love to go to op shops and markets to find all the embroidery goodies! 

Yeah I guess it’s a good thing that I already know my new SW. but I do know them and they are nothing like my old one. I hate fake cheerfulness. I hate constant talking. And she’s very open about her weight lose surgery, which is absolutely not ok to talk about. Urgh

[Bow]

It was totally a shock @rav3n  i didnt expect her to come back from a weeks sick leave and to up and leave me. She was to only have a week left and then she was on leave until the new year. 

I did get myself to my schema group today, didn’t wanna go. Just wanted to crawl into bed and disappear. But we have 3 sessions left. Was just gonna get there and just sit. Be there. Didn’t wanna participate. Knew I’d become a blubbering mess if I talked…. But I did, I told them what happened and they were very kind. Held the space I needed to talk about it. They said I did amazing to get there, put words to things and even words to my vulnerable child. 

im just genuinely concerned that this is gonna be a huge change to the kind of support I receive. Comm mh don’t really seem to give any shits. My psychologist sucks most of the time. I have no idea what is going on with my pdoc. 

notes will be handed. They will do a handover 

I had my old SW call and then visit today. And then that was it. I think it would have been helpful to have some kind of call this arvo. But no. And then I assume my new SW will just call tomorrow? 

I also asked what was gonna happen with the arts and craft group. My old SW ran that group. She didn’t know who was going to run it. If it goes back to colouring in every week, I won’t go. I hated it. My SW actually put the effort into planning it, I helped. 

😭😭

[Bow]

@Jynx ?

[Jynx]

Hiya @Bow just catching up on everything - your SW is leaving? Nooooo!

[Bow]

Yep @Jynx  😩 

moving into a manager position 

[Bow]

Trying to deal with my own shit… all my emotions and thoughts

and D is having the biggest meltdown cause I won’t give her more iPad time. Just handed me a note saying I don’t care about her and she wished she’d never been born

😩 that fuck!Ng messes with my head so much. Trying to hold my shit together cause I have to when all I wanna do is not be here