My Mosaic

[Paperdaisy]

@Bow is there anything that helps with the memories?

I can relate to having a child with a room like a bomb site. I think ours are a similar age. They have no awareness or care! I wonder when that changes.

[Bow]

Not really @Paperdaisy  just wanna go to sleep so I can stop thinking about them…. But then nightmares. It’s unending. Can’t wait for it to all be over. 

and no idea when it changes re: kids cleaning up. 

[Paperdaisy]

I hope you can get some rest @Bow 

[Bow]

seen this on my socials this morning and liked it.

 

[Bow]

Today as I walked out of my session with my psychologist I kicked a chair. Twice. That chair represented my eating disorder. Today I told my eating disorder how much I hated it. How much it has taken from me. How much it has destroyed my life..,, and so much more. I wish I could say that once I walked out of that room I left my ED in there. But I didn’t. I climbed back on my bike when I got back home. 

i realise that it’s not necessary to torture my body to get through what I am facing. That I don’t need it to face my trauma. But I don’t know what else I’m suppose to do when I am faced with overwhelming emotions and thoughts. And that’s what I have been faced with this afternoon. 

Feel like I ripped the Band-Aid off some of my trauma today. I’ve been left feeling pretty raw and vulnerable. It’s doesn’t feel very nice. And I don’t know what I’m suppose to do with those feelings, so I got on my bike. 

🎀

[Eve7]

Sending lots of love @Bow and acknowledging that being angry is an appropriate feeling right now.

We’re in this journey together and we’ll get through this in time. 

I saw my psychologist today and we covered a lot so I’m a bit churned up right now. Sleep is not coming easily.

💙🤗💙🤗💙

[Bow]

Thanks @Eve7  your words mean a lot. Hope you have an alright day today and eventually managed some sleep. 

This morning i have my sensory group… it’s not a group, cause it’s just me and the OT lady, but not sure what else to call it. And then I have DBT after that. Then depending how I’m feeling, I may go visit my SIL who is in hospital. 

Posting this today….. 

 

[Emelia8]

@Bow @Eve7  💕🙏🌸

I had a session with my psychologist late yesterday too.  Feeling it.  And feel for you both too.

Emelia

[NatureLover]

@Bow  You've been quiet...hope you're OK...

[Bow]

Thanks @NatureLover  not really ok the last couple of days. Things are rough and I’m only anticipating things to get harder over the next couple of weeks.