My Mosaic

[Bow]

@Jynx i cant stand the woodsmoke smell, have to wear a beanie otherwise it gets in my hair and keeps me awake. had a bath once the fire was out. self care yeah? at least i am trying? now in bed watching some movie

[Jynx]

Aww fair enough @Bow ! I just had a funny image of someone wanting to enjoy the fire, but hating the smoke so they just stand there looking awkward in full PPE (sorry for the whacky google image result haha): 
 

"Yes I am here to enjoy the flames!"

A bath and some movies in bed sounds perfect to me. And I mean, you already said it yourself - you are putting in an effort despite the difficulties your brain is throwing at you, and that can be commended. I hope the rest of your evening is as peaceful as it sounds

[Bow]

haha @Jynx  probs what i looked like tonight. grey trackies, grey hoodie with the hood pulled around tight

[Bow]

literally me. minus the mask and gloves tonight. but my d sometimes wears gloves for fire night

[Jynx]

@Bow  

Well thank you for putting a smile on my dial tonight haha that image is great! 

Considering how often I also get a face full of eyeball-stinging smoke, perhaps PPE isn't a bad idea after all... 

[Snowie]

Good morning @Bow 

Just coming past to see how you are today.

Lots and lots of love and hugs sweetie 💗💗💗💗

[Bow]

I was admitted to the psych ward yesterday after being in hospital since Saturday night. I called the ambulance myself, oh that took so much will power, I've not done that before.

I'm sad that I am in this place again. It's not a nice place to be. I really hope to not be here for very long. I miss an appointment with the professor today, but she already knows as the mental health nurse that I spoke with yesterday in the Ed called and spoke with her. She was understanding of my situation. Also miss an appointment with my dietitian tomorrow and then my first vax on Thursday. Hoping to be out by Friday that way I don't have to inform my ex of my Situation which is always a stresser for me. 

for the first time the mental health nurse asked me what would happen to my daughter if I was successful at my attempts. No one has ever asked me that before. I've thought about it, but it's never been asked. I broke down. 

anyways, that's me. 

[Snowie]

Good morning @Bow 

Well done for calling an ambulance. I know how hard that is to do, especially for ourselves.

I hope being in hospital helps you hon.

We are here for you.

Lots of love and hugs 💕💕💕💕

[Eve7]

I am sorry @Bow  that this has happened again but glad you had the courage to call for help when needed.

I hope this admission is helpful. I’ll be praying for you.

Sending lots of love to you and a big hug.

💜💜🤗💜💜

[Bow]

Thanks @Eve7 @Snowie  appreciate your thoughts.

I'm so tired. Did not sleep well the last 3 nights, 2 in the ED and last night here. I feel headachy and just horrible in the head. They are starting me back on one of the meds the professor took me off when I was in hospital a couple of weeks ago, hopefully that will help with my sleep. not sure what else they plan to do and no idea how long I will be here... 'until I am well'