I'm in a nest

[Former-Member]

No need to reply @CheerBear
Cuppa for you ☕🍰
Just letting you know, I'm here. 💟💕

[CheerBear]

Thank you @Former-Member and @Former-Member for reading and replying. I don't mean to dump this on anyone, I just need to say it somewhere so I don't say it to the wrong people. I genuinely don't expect a reply. It's helpful to have somewhere to say what is suffocating me at the moment.

I am going in to see their psychiatrist tomorrow. Not because I want to but because when I asked what the consequences of not going would be the answer was vague if I am being positive and completely terrifying if I am being realisitic. I'm absolutely flipping out and that's becoming now almost like I'm proving to them that I am not ok. I really do feel like packing a bag and going in volunteering myself to their services and relying on the fact that hospitals are overcrowded and underfunded so I could be in and then back out in no time at all, with a gold star for compliance, and then being able to keep on going with my life, only this time much quieter than before and with extra damage to work out.

This sucks so much. It hurts so much

[TheVorticon]

Just wanted to send down a care package to the nest (once the image comes through, I think it's got some supplies in a backpack) @CheerBear. You're doing a good job weathering the storm.

[Former-Member]

It is a terrible situation @CheerBear
If you did go in, do you have someone to look after your kids?

Iike I said, you don't have to reply, only if you want to . 💟💕

And it's ok for you to say how you feel on here.

[Former-Member]

Go gentle in your nest. With you tomorrow 💜
Sending lots of calming hugs and I'm crossing my fingers it goes well. 💜🤗

[Phoenix_Rising]

I'm sitting with you @CheerBear. We will sit through this muddle together.

Psssst, do you want to know a secret? The reclusive Phoenix_Rising with the shattered attachment system due to far too many losses actually wishes she could come and sit with you for real. But shhhhhhh don't tell anyone, they might get jealous.

[Former-Member]

Nighty night @CheerBear 😴💟💕
You're doing well considering all that's going on. Keep resting in your nest.

Nighty night anyone else here. 😴💜

[CheerBear]

I'm exhausted moving just a little is very hard and all I want is sleep and rest but every time I think I'm starting to relax I feel a jolt of fear and panic again and I have to calm back down and it all starts again. I need it to stop.

[Former-Member]

Hey @Former-Member   I've been wanting to say hi and that I'm thinking of you too but I keep getting distracted. I know you are doing it tough but wanted you to know you are in my thoughts too. 

Sending hugs 💜🤗💐